These words are so true and so relevant to (my experience of) infertility. Every step of the way I have had thoughts like "I can't do this," "I can't cope," "It makes me too anxious" and I've felt like at any time I was going to get to the point where I couldn't keep going. But I've amazed myself time and again with how I've managed to keep going and find strength I didn't know I had.
At the moment it's a weird time for me. I have been all over the place emotionally and the past week I've felt awful. I know it's been mostly the Clomid affecting my mood but it's still so hard. Since yesterday I've felt noticeably better so I'm hoping I'm over the worst for this month. (Clomid affects everyone differently and for me depression and feeling agitated/moody is my biggest side effect)
I've also found lately that I've switched between feeling really upset and then feeling numb for a while- which I much prefer. I think the numbness is partly my mind trying to protect itself because last month I found it so upsetting. I'm too scared to get excited and I don't feel hopeful about it working this time. I've been trying to focus on other things like work and planning holidays and I've found that helpful.
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